I've been asked to write a blog on what makes me happy.....What a time for this question because lately it seems I've been a little sad, especially yesterday! Yesterday I had yet another session of therapy. Oh and what a session it was.....it was a hard one. We talked about Lia's move to Africa, about family, about my upcoming what would have been anniversary, about Tom, about life in general. I found it to be a hard session because as you can see it's full of so many different emotions....by the time I left there I was in tears....tears of happiness, tears of sadness, tears of grief.....and then last night.......I just broke down.....I couldn't stop the tears from coming.....they were neverending....and even now I feel as if I could cry....It's almost ridiculous. At least I laugh at how retarded it is. But sometimes....you just have to let it out..even in midst of all the crying God was there holding me....comforting me, I had support of my fellow GEMS leaders, and I had Tom's listening ear.....God sure has blessed me, wouldn't you say?
If I could ask one thing from my fellow bloggers, it would be that you would pray for me the next month with all the upcoming craziness. I will be attending my first wedding since the split, I will be saying goodbye to yet another sister, and so much more.....
So here's my list of what makes me Happy/Sad/Thankful....
I am Sad because:
1. Lia and Scott and the kids are moving to Africa
2. That Amy and Tristan and Stella live so far away
3. That my so called anniversary is coming up....even though I would never take Derek back or want to go back to my old life....just a sad day.....
4. I'm sad that Sonny is sick
5. I'm sad that sometimes life just doesn't seem fair.
I am Happy/Thankful because:
1. I am dating again
2. I am doing things that I've never done before
3. That I am independant
4. I am thankful for my family
5. I am thankful for my job
6. I am thankful that God died on the cross and forgave every one of my sins.
7. I am thankful for all my friends
I am thankful for so many things.....the list could go on and on....but for now I must go.
Love you all!